NaNoWriMo: I Suck at This, But That's Okay.

Firstly, yes I said I would offer weekly reviews and content, and I am working on it, I have a review of the video game Faster Than Light lined up that I am still writing and I have to finish a few more things before I can offer weekly reviews, One of the issues I have come to face is images. I really don't want to simply rip the images of google search and host them here. I might have to with certain items I review but for the most part, I will try to get screenshots myself and host them instead of stealing other peoples work. - As for content, here is an update on National Novel Writing Month I mentioned last update.

So November hit us yesterday, and I haven't written a single word down yet. The reason for this is a mix of procrastination and anxiety. I have very little faith in my own idea, and I am massively worried about people reading my ideas. I am not the greatest of writers. As you can most likely see from all my grammar and punctuation errors that will no doubt plague all my future posts. It's the one reason I got into script writing, yes, I will be making a metric tone of errors and spelling mistakes, no one will read them because no doubt the script will be acted out in front of a camera - it all becomes irrelevant during post production. - As for novel and essay writing, I crumble under the worry. Creative writing is causes a great deal of stress for me. Questions flood my mind about plot holes, "will people find plot holes here?" - "What if I haven't described this characters motives well enough" - "Crap, Do I write in first or third person!?"

I think another worry for me is that I don't read enough, I know I should but I have an extremely short attention span, I will lay that down now. Something has to interest me from the get go, I don't believe in reading a book that gets "good" half way through, although I really should give books more of a chance, I just find it hard to find novels I actually enjoy, but when I find one, man do I enjoy it! - The reason this is a problem? I haven't read enough in order to get a grip on the different writing styles and influences. - silly, perhaps, but this does bother me, and I know how to fix it, read more books.

But why am I rambling on about this? It's because a thought dawned on me just now. I suck at writing, but that really is okay. I tried to write a story in this format last year, and while it was fun, it wasn't polished, I liked the idea, but I felt my writing let it down, but before I tried last year, I had never tried to write a story in that form. I am aware that writing is something you have to practice with, and everyone starts somewhere, I just feel a little late to the party. So for now, it's okay to be pretty poor at this, I just need to keep writing and surely it will improve. No one is great the first time, so I really need to stop trying to impress, and being a perfectionist, I should just sit down and write, and worry about all this afterwards.